I have a strong imagination. But there are some things I can't imagine...
I can't imagine anyone having a crush on me.
I can't imagine myself being anyone's last thought before they drift off to sleep.
I can't imagine anybody getting butterflies just because they saw me, or because I said hey and smiled at them.
I can't imagine anybody smiling at their phone or computer screen just because they got a message from me.
Why would anybody even do that?
I'm just me. Nothing extraordinary, nothing special. Just me.
Why did you do that?
Why did you pick me?
Monday, April 29, 2013
Friday, April 26, 2013
26/04/2013
My heart is scarred and damaged. I have been far too reckless with it the past, and that eventually made me too closed off. I don't think I can open up again. I don't think that I can get to a place where I can feel like I can let anyone break through the walls that I put up. You will prove me wrong. You will heal my heart. My scars will fade with every second I spend by your side.
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
23/04/2013
The first time you kissed my lips, I felt my bones tremble. I felt my heart melt, slowly unfreezing. The more you kissed me, the more I melted. I'm not frozen any more. Thank you.
Friday, April 19, 2013
19/04/2013
I have a lot of imperfections, I suppose we all do.
But I'm sorry for my imperfections, because they can cause great pain to others at times.
I'm sorry that I'm self destructive and that I often want to hurt myself.
I'm sorry that I sometimes want to give up on everything and let myself go.
I'm sorry that sometimes I try to run from issues.
I'm sorry I sometimes want to die.
I'm sorry that I sometimes hide my emotions from you, or avoid talking about how I'm feeling.
I'm sorry if I push you away when you're trying to be there for me.
Know that, even when I do these things, I still love you, I still need you.
I take a lot of patience and time. I'm sorry.
But I'm sorry for my imperfections, because they can cause great pain to others at times.
I'm sorry that I'm self destructive and that I often want to hurt myself.
I'm sorry that I sometimes want to give up on everything and let myself go.
I'm sorry that sometimes I try to run from issues.
I'm sorry I sometimes want to die.
I'm sorry that I sometimes hide my emotions from you, or avoid talking about how I'm feeling.
I'm sorry if I push you away when you're trying to be there for me.
Know that, even when I do these things, I still love you, I still need you.
I take a lot of patience and time. I'm sorry.
Saturday, April 13, 2013
13/04/2013
You.
I've spent hours contemplating
the words to say to you
but no combination
of twenty six different letters
could ever accurately capture
even a sliver of what this feeling is.
Tuesday, April 09, 2013
Saturday, April 06, 2013
06/04/2013
Don't let yourself not feel. You're worth so much more than walking around numb. I promise, from the bottom of my heart, you are.
Friday, April 05, 2013
05/04/2013
Whatever you do, do not get your hopes up.
Don't do it. Just don't.
You know what happens - you just get hurt.
Do NOT get your hopes up.
Okay?
Okay...
You got your hopes up, didn't you?
Yeah...
Fuck! (FUCK.)
Don't do it. Just don't.
You know what happens - you just get hurt.
Do NOT get your hopes up.
Okay?
Okay...
You got your hopes up, didn't you?
Yeah...
Fuck! (FUCK.)
Thursday, April 04, 2013
04/04/2013
Are you there?
Is that you?
Have I found you?
Have I found our beginning?
Or am I just dreaming, confused and unreal?
Is that you?
Have I found you?
Have I found our beginning?
Or am I just dreaming, confused and unreal?
Monday, April 01, 2013
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
26/03/2013
When I say that you look good today, I don't mean that today you look good, whereas normally you don't.
I mean that while you look good everyday, there is something special about you today. There is a spark to you that isn't always apparent. A spark that makes you even more beautiful. A spark that makes you glow, and shine brighter than the stars. A spark that makes me even more unwilling to tear my eyes from your face. A feat I would think impossible, but it is true.
This spark that you have when I tell you that you look good today... It feels like a rare, and fleeting glimpse into your heart and soul.
It is magical. Fantastical. Beautiful.
I mean that while you look good everyday, there is something special about you today. There is a spark to you that isn't always apparent. A spark that makes you even more beautiful. A spark that makes you glow, and shine brighter than the stars. A spark that makes me even more unwilling to tear my eyes from your face. A feat I would think impossible, but it is true.
This spark that you have when I tell you that you look good today... It feels like a rare, and fleeting glimpse into your heart and soul.
It is magical. Fantastical. Beautiful.
Monday, March 25, 2013
25/03/2013
I had a bad nights sleep last night.
My brain wouldn't switch off, like it so often can't.
But I didn't crave sleep.
I craved you.
I craved your warmth, your touch, your skin, your breath, everything that makes you, you.
I needed you last night.
Where were you?
Where are you now?
Why can't you find me?
Why can't I find you?
My brain wouldn't switch off, like it so often can't.
But I didn't crave sleep.
I craved you.
I craved your warmth, your touch, your skin, your breath, everything that makes you, you.
I needed you last night.
Where were you?
Where are you now?
Why can't you find me?
Why can't I find you?
Friday, March 22, 2013
22/03/2013
I'd prefer one flower to a whole bunch.
I'd rather stay in with you on a Friday night instead of going to a wild party with a bunch of people I don't even really know.
I wouldn't make you wait on me hand on foot, I'd rather take care of you and make sure that you are well and happy.
I'd rather stay up all night talking and sharing stories and secrets than getting drunk.
I wouldn't make you hold all my bags, I'd rather you held my hand.
I'd rather stay in and watch tv or a movie rather than go to some fancy restaurant.
I'm the kind of girl who will fall in love with you so deeply you would never have any doubts about how I feel about you.
I would give anything, do anything just to see you happy and smiling.
I will love you more than you could possibly dream of. I will be there for you, no matter what. I would drop everything and come running to make sure you're alright. And I will stand by your side and fight through the toughest of battles with you.
Forever.
I'd rather stay in with you on a Friday night instead of going to a wild party with a bunch of people I don't even really know.
I wouldn't make you wait on me hand on foot, I'd rather take care of you and make sure that you are well and happy.
I'd rather stay up all night talking and sharing stories and secrets than getting drunk.
I wouldn't make you hold all my bags, I'd rather you held my hand.
I'd rather stay in and watch tv or a movie rather than go to some fancy restaurant.
I'm the kind of girl who will fall in love with you so deeply you would never have any doubts about how I feel about you.
I would give anything, do anything just to see you happy and smiling.
I will love you more than you could possibly dream of. I will be there for you, no matter what. I would drop everything and come running to make sure you're alright. And I will stand by your side and fight through the toughest of battles with you.
Forever.
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
19/03/2013
I saw a post earlier today called "Unusual Date Ideas". It went as follows -
1. Go on a search for as many good climbing trees as possible, climb as high as you can in all of them, compile photo evidence.
2. Go to a major chain bookstore, and leave notes to future readers in copies of your favourite books.
3. Have her dressed up as a ghost and him dressed up as Pacman. Walk around downtown holding hands, and whenever anyone sees you two, pretend to be embarrassed and run off screaming "wocka wocka wocka."
4. Create photo evidence suggesting that you went on an adventure that didn't really happen.
5. Dress up as superheroes and stop at least one petty crime ie. jaywalking, littering...
6. Build forts out of furniture and blankets, and wage war with paper airplanes.
7. Try and visit as many people as you can in one night, and turn as many things inside their apartment upside down as you can, without them noticing.
8. Go to the airport, get the cheapest, soonest departing flight to anywhere when you show up, and stay there for a weekend.
9. Write a piece of fiction together. Outside at a cafe. Ask strangers for ideas when you get stuck.
10. Dress to the nines, pretend to be married, and test drive very expensive vehicles at an auto dealership.
11. Do the lamest tourist thing in your area that you have both secretly wanted to do forever. Have an unabashed good time!
12. In the middle of the night, drive to the beach, so you arrive just as the sun is rising. Have a breakfast picnic, then fall asleep together. Bring a sun umbrella.
13. Drive somewhere unknown and have dinner in a city you've never been to. With fake names.
14. Go to a minor league baseball game under the stars. Tell each other stories about how bad you are at athletics. Randomly cheer for other teams. Eat lots of Cracker Jacks.
15. Go around the city with sidewalk chalk and draw hearts with equations inside on random things.
16. Walk around a city and perform short silent plays in front of security cameras.
17. With a camera and pair of boots, make a photolog of a day in the life of an invisible man.
18. Walk around the city all night and find a place to eat breakfast at dawn.
19. Go to a restaurant and convince the cook to create something completely new for you.
20. Rent a movie you've never seen before. Set on mute and improvise dialogue.
I cannot wait until I am with you and we can start having unusual dates like this together. Hurry up and find me. And if you have found me, hurry up and be with me.
1. Go on a search for as many good climbing trees as possible, climb as high as you can in all of them, compile photo evidence.
2. Go to a major chain bookstore, and leave notes to future readers in copies of your favourite books.
3. Have her dressed up as a ghost and him dressed up as Pacman. Walk around downtown holding hands, and whenever anyone sees you two, pretend to be embarrassed and run off screaming "wocka wocka wocka."
4. Create photo evidence suggesting that you went on an adventure that didn't really happen.
5. Dress up as superheroes and stop at least one petty crime ie. jaywalking, littering...
6. Build forts out of furniture and blankets, and wage war with paper airplanes.
7. Try and visit as many people as you can in one night, and turn as many things inside their apartment upside down as you can, without them noticing.
8. Go to the airport, get the cheapest, soonest departing flight to anywhere when you show up, and stay there for a weekend.
9. Write a piece of fiction together. Outside at a cafe. Ask strangers for ideas when you get stuck.
10. Dress to the nines, pretend to be married, and test drive very expensive vehicles at an auto dealership.
11. Do the lamest tourist thing in your area that you have both secretly wanted to do forever. Have an unabashed good time!
12. In the middle of the night, drive to the beach, so you arrive just as the sun is rising. Have a breakfast picnic, then fall asleep together. Bring a sun umbrella.
13. Drive somewhere unknown and have dinner in a city you've never been to. With fake names.
14. Go to a minor league baseball game under the stars. Tell each other stories about how bad you are at athletics. Randomly cheer for other teams. Eat lots of Cracker Jacks.
15. Go around the city with sidewalk chalk and draw hearts with equations inside on random things.
16. Walk around a city and perform short silent plays in front of security cameras.
17. With a camera and pair of boots, make a photolog of a day in the life of an invisible man.
18. Walk around the city all night and find a place to eat breakfast at dawn.
19. Go to a restaurant and convince the cook to create something completely new for you.
20. Rent a movie you've never seen before. Set on mute and improvise dialogue.
I cannot wait until I am with you and we can start having unusual dates like this together. Hurry up and find me. And if you have found me, hurry up and be with me.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)