29/04/2013

I have a strong imagination. But there are some things I can't imagine...
I can't imagine anyone having a crush on me.
I can't imagine myself being anyone's last thought before they drift off to sleep.
I can't imagine anybody getting butterflies just because they saw me, or because I said hey and smiled at them.
I can't imagine anybody smiling at their phone or computer screen just because they got a message from me.
Why would anybody even do that?
I'm just me. Nothing extraordinary, nothing special. Just me.
Why did you do that?
Why did you pick me?

26/04/2013

My heart is scarred and damaged. I have been far too reckless with it the past, and that eventually made me too closed off. I don't think I can open up again. I don't think that I can get to a place where I can feel like I can let anyone break through the walls that I put up. You will prove me wrong. You will heal my heart. My scars will fade with every second I spend by your side.

23/04/2013

The first time you kissed my lips, I felt my bones tremble. I felt my heart melt, slowly unfreezing. The more you kissed me, the more I melted. I'm not frozen any more. Thank you.

19/04/2013

I have a lot of imperfections, I suppose we all do.
But I'm sorry for my imperfections, because they can cause great pain to others at times.
I'm sorry that I'm self destructive and that I often want to hurt myself.
I'm sorry that I sometimes want to give up on everything and let myself go.
I'm sorry that sometimes I try to run from issues.
I'm sorry I sometimes want to die.
I'm sorry that I sometimes hide my emotions from you, or avoid talking about how I'm feeling.
I'm sorry if I push you away when you're trying to be there for me.

Know that, even when I do these things, I still love you, I still need you.
I take a lot of patience and time. I'm sorry.

13/04/2013

You.

I've spent hours contemplating

the words to say to you

but no combination

of twenty six different letters

could ever accurately capture

even a sliver of what this feeling is.

 

09/04/2013

I'm in.
If you're in, I'm in.

06/04/2013

Don't let yourself not feel. You're worth so much more than walking around numb. I promise, from the bottom of my heart, you are.

05/04/2013

Whatever you do, do not get your hopes up.
Don't do it. Just don't.
You know what happens - you just get hurt.
Do NOT get your hopes up.
Okay?
Okay...
You got your hopes up, didn't you?
Yeah...
Fuck! (FUCK.)

04/04/2013

Are you there?
Is that you?
Have I found you?
Have I found our beginning?
Or am I just dreaming, confused and unreal?

01/04/2013

Let's find some place beautiful and get lost there.
Together.