05/12/2013

I want to know how many scars you have
and memorise the shape of your tongue.
I want to climb the curve of your lower back
and count your vertebrae
               your ribs
               your fingers
               your goose bumps.
I want to chart the topography of your anatomy
and be fluent in your body language.
I want you, entire.

04/12/2013

"I have a paperback
heart
dog-eared and creased
by the world,

the colours
are faded
and the spine is worn
but I'm glad
to see
it's finally in
good
hands."

25/11/2013

"She doesn't say 'I love you' like a normal person. Instead, she'll laugh, shake her head, give you a little smile, and say, 'You're an idiot.' If she tells you you're an idiot, you're a lucky man."

20/10/2013

When I can't sleep at night-
I stare at the empty side of my bed,
and wonder about the things
I would tell you,
if you were laying next to me.

--A.S.

03/10/2013

I have this idea. I want to give you a camera; for a day. And I want you to use that camera to take pictures. I want you to take pictures of each moment you think that I'm beautiful. No matter what it is I am doing. I want you to do this, because I want to see myself through your eyes. I want to try and see what you see when you look at me because when I look at myself I don't see anything special. Yet, you disagree. I want to know what you see in me that I can't see in myself.

13/09/2013

I like it when you show that you care; that's what I really need from you.

31/08/2013

"I love how you're taking care of me."
"It's what I'm here for."
"That's not just what you're there for..."
"What else then?"
"You're there to make me smile, laugh, and generally just cheer me up. You're there to hold my hand when I need support, and to offer arms for comfort, and a shoulder to cry on. You're there to listen when I need to talk something through, to discuss my ideas with, to guard my secrets. You're there to be my best friend and my team mate. That, and a whole lot more."

14/08/2013

"I wish someone would

randomly tell me little facts

about myself. Not ones that I

have already told them but

ones they have picked up by

themselves because they care

enough to notice the little

things I do."

-A.S.

26/07/13

I don't want a perfect person, I just want someone to act silly with, someone who treats me well and loves being with me more than anything.

01/07/2013

The rain is pouring outside. The wind is howling through the trees that make up the woods behind my house. I'm tucked away safely inside, wrapped up in my quilt all snug and warm. The only thing that could make this moment better is you. Nights like this make me wish that I could be with you. We would lie, hand in hand, our bodies pressed closely together. We would whisper softly to one another in the darkness about our love, and we would laugh quietly with each other until the tug of sleep is, at last, too much. We would fall asleep in each other's arms, as the music of the rain, and wind, and the steady beating of our hearts carry us off into the realm of dreams.

13/06/2013

I want a life that's not here
a life far away from waking up
             "alright"
a life with
               kisses
               and dirty dishes
               and wrinkled sheets
     that are
                             yours and mine
     and
                             mine and yours.

03/06/2013

I love you.
I love who I am when you're around, and how you make me feel about myself. You enable me to push aside my imperfections, and insecurities, and open up to the world and relax. Nobody else has ever made me feel that way, but you.

25/05/2013

I cannot wait for the day that I can turn and look at you, with a huge smile on my face, and say "I'm his girl."

22/05/2013

“I could start fires with what I feel for you.”

—	Fires, David Ramirez

21/05/2013

I woke up.

I woke up, from dreaming of you.

I woke up, hoping to see your face.

I woke up, wanting to be in your arms.

I woke up, wishing to kiss you.

I woke up, and I was alone.

20/05/2013

“I decided on you, don’t you get that? I decided on you. I don’t want to go fucking other people and then walk around feeling thrilled and then sad, or empty, or whatever. I like the smell of your hair, and I like the sound of your voice, and I fucking decided on you.”

18/05/2013

"Fall in love with someone who promises to make you laugh, fall in love with the constant feeling of being anchored to someone who makes the crash of waves bearable,  someone who makes you stronger. Fall in love with someone who tells you that if they fall asleep waiting for you to call, they'll call you in the morning. - but not too early. Be in love with something greater than the both of you that defies your superstitions. Be in the arms of someone you can call your lover, someone that completes your heart. Be with someone who lets you be wrong and wades in the mistake with you. Fall in love and write down in your diaries "we made it through," knowing there is more (good things) to come. But most of all, hold on to that love with clenched fists and a willing heart."

05/05/2013

Commitment.
It scares me. More than scares me, in fact. It petrifies me. I'm scared to open myself to someone like that again. I'm scared that I will get hurt. Again. But when it comes to you, I will be able to crush that fear. I will be able to let you in, past my walls, and into the recesses of my heart.

29/04/2013

I have a strong imagination. But there are some things I can't imagine...
I can't imagine anyone having a crush on me.
I can't imagine myself being anyone's last thought before they drift off to sleep.
I can't imagine anybody getting butterflies just because they saw me, or because I said hey and smiled at them.
I can't imagine anybody smiling at their phone or computer screen just because they got a message from me.
Why would anybody even do that?
I'm just me. Nothing extraordinary, nothing special. Just me.
Why did you do that?
Why did you pick me?

26/04/2013

My heart is scarred and damaged. I have been far too reckless with it the past, and that eventually made me too closed off. I don't think I can open up again. I don't think that I can get to a place where I can feel like I can let anyone break through the walls that I put up. You will prove me wrong. You will heal my heart. My scars will fade with every second I spend by your side.

23/04/2013

The first time you kissed my lips, I felt my bones tremble. I felt my heart melt, slowly unfreezing. The more you kissed me, the more I melted. I'm not frozen any more. Thank you.

19/04/2013

I have a lot of imperfections, I suppose we all do.
But I'm sorry for my imperfections, because they can cause great pain to others at times.
I'm sorry that I'm self destructive and that I often want to hurt myself.
I'm sorry that I sometimes want to give up on everything and let myself go.
I'm sorry that sometimes I try to run from issues.
I'm sorry I sometimes want to die.
I'm sorry that I sometimes hide my emotions from you, or avoid talking about how I'm feeling.
I'm sorry if I push you away when you're trying to be there for me.

Know that, even when I do these things, I still love you, I still need you.
I take a lot of patience and time. I'm sorry.

13/04/2013

You.

I've spent hours contemplating

the words to say to you

but no combination

of twenty six different letters

could ever accurately capture

even a sliver of what this feeling is.

 

09/04/2013

I'm in.
If you're in, I'm in.

06/04/2013

Don't let yourself not feel. You're worth so much more than walking around numb. I promise, from the bottom of my heart, you are.

05/04/2013

Whatever you do, do not get your hopes up.
Don't do it. Just don't.
You know what happens - you just get hurt.
Do NOT get your hopes up.
Okay?
Okay...
You got your hopes up, didn't you?
Yeah...
Fuck! (FUCK.)

04/04/2013

Are you there?
Is that you?
Have I found you?
Have I found our beginning?
Or am I just dreaming, confused and unreal?

01/04/2013

Let's find some place beautiful and get lost there.
Together.

26/03/2013

When I say that you look good today, I don't mean that today you look good, whereas normally you don't.

I mean that while you look good everyday, there is something special about you today. There is a spark to you that isn't always apparent. A spark that makes you even more beautiful. A spark that makes you glow, and shine brighter than the stars. A spark that makes me even more unwilling to tear my eyes from your face. A feat I would think impossible, but it is true.

This spark that you have when I tell you that you look good today... It feels like a rare, and fleeting glimpse into your heart and soul.

It is magical. Fantastical. Beautiful.

25/03/2013

I had a bad nights sleep last night.
My brain wouldn't switch off, like it so often can't.
But I didn't crave sleep.
I craved you.
I craved your warmth, your touch, your skin, your breath, everything that makes you, you.
I needed you last night.
Where were you?
Where are you now?
Why can't you find me?
Why can't I find you?

22/03/2013

I'd prefer one flower to a whole bunch.
I'd rather stay in with you on a Friday night instead of going to a wild party with a bunch of people I don't even really know.
I wouldn't make you wait on me hand on foot, I'd rather take care of you and make sure that you are well and happy.
I'd rather stay up all night talking and sharing stories and secrets than getting drunk.
I wouldn't make you hold all my bags, I'd rather you held my hand.
I'd rather stay in and watch tv or a movie rather than go to some fancy restaurant.
I'm the kind of girl who will fall in love with you so deeply you would never have any doubts about how I feel about you.
I would give anything, do anything just to see you happy and smiling.

I will love you more than you could possibly dream of. I will be there for you, no matter what. I would drop everything and come running to make sure you're alright. And I will stand by your side and fight through the toughest of battles with you.


Forever.

20/03/2013

"It hurts because it mattered."
                 - John Green

19/03/2013

I saw a post earlier today called "Unusual Date Ideas". It went as follows -


1. Go on a search for as many good climbing trees as possible, climb as high as you can in all of them, compile photo evidence. 

2. Go to a major chain bookstore, and leave notes to future readers in copies of your favourite books.

3. Have her dressed up as a ghost and him dressed up as Pacman. Walk around downtown holding hands, and whenever anyone sees you two, pretend to be embarrassed and run off screaming "wocka wocka wocka."

4. Create photo evidence suggesting that you went on an adventure that didn't really happen.

5. Dress up as superheroes and stop at least one petty crime ie. jaywalking, littering...

6. Build forts out of furniture and blankets, and wage war with paper airplanes.

7. Try and visit as many people as you can in one night, and turn as many things inside their apartment upside down as you can, without them noticing.

8. Go to the airport, get the cheapest, soonest departing flight to anywhere when you show up, and stay there for a weekend.

9. Write a piece of fiction together. Outside at a cafe. Ask strangers for ideas when you get stuck.

10. Dress to the nines, pretend to be married, and test drive very expensive vehicles at an auto dealership.

11. Do the lamest tourist thing in your area that you have both secretly wanted to do forever. Have an unabashed good time!

12. In the middle of the night, drive to the beach, so you arrive just as the sun is rising. Have a breakfast picnic, then fall asleep together. Bring a sun umbrella.

13. Drive somewhere unknown and have dinner in a city you've never been to. With fake names.

14. Go to a minor league baseball game under the stars. Tell each other stories about how bad you are at athletics. Randomly cheer for other teams. Eat lots of Cracker Jacks.

15. Go around the city with sidewalk chalk and draw hearts with equations inside on random things.

16. Walk around a city and perform short silent plays in front of security cameras.

17. With a camera and pair of boots, make a photolog of a day in the life of an invisible man.

18. Walk around the city all night and find a place to eat breakfast at dawn.

19. Go to a restaurant and convince the cook to create something completely new for you.

20. Rent a movie you've never seen before. Set on mute and improvise dialogue.



 I cannot wait until I am with you and we can start having unusual dates like this together. Hurry up and find me. And if you have found me, hurry up and be with me.

18/03/2013

I want us to be an amazing couple. Let's go for a drive. Why? No particular reason, just for the fun of it. Let's skip the drama of the outside and stay in bed for a couple more hours. We don't even have to talk. Just being able to smell your sweet scent is enough communication for me. Let's take a bunch of pictures. So we can document every waking second together. Let's finish each others sentences, make pancakes for breakfast, walk to the park. We don't need to fight anymore. We don't need to make schedules and appointments. We don't need to care about what others think of us. Let us live free from judgment or sadness. Ignore their hate, accept my love. I want us to be free. Let us stay home, wherever we choose to make it. Because frankly, home is wherever I'm with you.

16/03/2013

Who are you,
really?

You are not a name
or a height, or a weight
or a gender
You are not an age
and you are not where you
are from

You are your favourite books
and the songs stuck in your head
you are your thoughts
and what you eat for breakfast
on Saturday mornings

You are a thousand things
but everyone chooses
to see the million things
you are not

You are not
where you are from
you are
where you are going
and I'd like
to go there
too.

11/03/2013

"You're asleep and I'm sad
I wanted to stay up all night
and talk with you about
your day and why the sky is blue

Everything is so easy with us,
our words flow back and forth steadily,
like the gliding of a ship
atop a calm sea

When I feel broken,
you mend me with your words
when I have nothing to say,
you effortlessly occupy the silence

You fill this gap inside me
in a way that makes me forget
I was ever incomplete

I'd tell you all of this,
but you're asleep."

09/03/2013

I just want one day with you. 24 hours. It'll just be you and me. We get to do whatever we want, no interference or anybody else. Just me and you. That's all I want right now.

07/03/2013

Today is a Thursday, and I love you.
I'll love you tomorrow, and the next day, and even the next week.
In four months I will love you, just like I loved you yesterday.
Forty years from now, I'll run my hands through my grey hair and smile at the thought of how much I love you.
I just hope that you will be with me through all the time that I will love you. 

06/03/2013

Today I saw something. It said “do you think about me as much as I think about you?” And it made me wonder… Do you?

04/03/2013

A night to think of what you've lost
A day to be forgotten
A morning shining through the frost
A silver tear, begotten.
To see a star, recall its name
I pray—remember me
Through winter's fall and winter's gain
I'll keep your memory.
The fire cannot burn you out
The cold shan't see you stilled
If you should ever think to doubt—
My love, I will not yield.